Your Touch

He Touches Me

He touches me in mysterious ways
Only my heart can understand.
The feelings he evokes when his eyes meet mine
Are almost more than I can stand.
He gently breathes, I close my eyes
And feel his love flow softly over me
Like a babbling brook, winding its way
Through the forest; An endless stream to the sea.

The stars in the sky spell out his name,
As the clouds come racing in
To hold him closer; As if even they,
Can not be without him.
He only has to speak my name
And my fragile heart skips a beat
And as his tender words are uttered,
All my doubts and troubled fears
Are put to sleep.
He touches me and I'm filled
With the most warm and wondrous light
It's as if before him, I was just as dark
As the dead of the longest night.
Just to gaze into his eyes
And feel his heart beat with mine,
It's all I'll ever, ever ask until the end of time!

~ Eliza Dunn

Dragi,
When we speak... you calm me.
When I look at you... you calm me.
When you touch me... you calm me.
When I feel your heart beating against my chest... you calm me.
Most of all, when you say you love me... I know everything is right in the world.

People close to me keep telling me I've changed over the past year. It's true. I have. I stopped believing I wasn't worthy of a full and satisfying life. I stopped believing I was worthless and not deserving of someone's full love and attention. I started doing things for myself again, instead of ignoring my own needs and always doing things for others. I still do PLENTY for other people, but I take time for myself now too. I found my sensuality again, and my sexuality. I don't want to go back to who I was a year ago, even though some people want me to. I want to go forward. I want to be the best mother and wife I can be- a mother to my children, and a wife to you.

I know I appear angry often. It's hard to maintain my current living situation without resentment, anger and a degree of fear. I want to be happy again. I want to be happy with you by my side. I miss you terribly. I wish I could tell the world about you. I wish the next year could just fly by quickly, without pain and suffering, so we can get on with OUR life together.