Finding You

Finding You
by Hilary Eckholt

Although one may often wish,
To forget their past mistakes…
To leave behind their hardships,
No matter what’s at stake –
To ignore the lessons,
That they’ve learned over the years…
Just to disregard their heartaches,
Their pains, trials, and tears –
I’ve come to know, that I cannot,
Regret the life that I have led…
I cannot be apologetic,
For the things I’ve done or said –
I cannot live a life of anger,
For the sufferings I’ve faced…
Or think that tears I have shed,
Should ever be replaced –
The moments of which I faltered,
Or made the wrong choice…
The times that I needed to stand up,
But I seemed to lose my voice –
Along with the days that I stood strong,
And lived up to my potential…
All joined together to form a road,
That each soul finds essential –
For each step that I took along,
The life that I’ve been through…
Became just one step closer
…to finding you.

Once you said that you wouldn't want me to change a thing about my life, because my experiences made me the person I am today. Some memories are good ones, and some aren't so good, but they all form the Omaciti standing before you now. If I had never been treated poorly, I wouldn't recognize how wonderful you are to me. If I had never been lonely, I wouldn't know how much your company means to me. If I had never gone without a loving touch, I wouldn't cherish your touches as much. If we had met 10 years earlier, I wouldn't have been ready for you.

I'm ready for you now, Dragi. I'm ready for your unconditional love, your constant companionship, your friendship and trust, your gentle caresses. I'm ready for you, Dragi.

I'm ready for us.